October 30 FIRST BLOOD!!Your hero has pawned Treasury Management's head.. One down, 3 more to go.. For the record, I dont believe in luck.. I believe in probabilities! LAWL!!
October 31 Farming day.. On the bright side, Boston Celtics pawned Chicago Bulls.. Back to back threes, deepo cuto! Dallas Mavericks pawned LA Lakers! Lakers lost at home! That's huge man.. This will probably mark the first of the many more losses that Lakers gonna have nate.. Mark my words.. LAWL!!
Say and it will be done..
November 1 Yet another boring farming day.. But I'm definitely going for the kill tomorrow.. Someone's going down real hard.. Meanwhile, it's been raining everyday lately.. Yes I'm complaining cuz I'm not out there playing.. Just trapped within these 4 walls reading my notes.. Grrr.. Oh well, at least there's something to be happy about today.. My garlic butter white button mushroom baked with cheese? Officially a success! Hohoho! Yes, Ms Ho! You heard me.. LAWL!!
November 2 DOUBLE KILL!! Your hero has pawned Macroeconomic's head.. Didnt have enough time to write properly.. Hopefully my HD is still possible.. 2 up and 2 down! It's a memorable day.. "when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everything's okay.." I'm ready to hear it.. On the other hand, my Aino baby is here!! I want..
Sometimes horrible feelings are meant to be kept inside.. Just swallow it and no one gets hurt..
November 3 Pawned by interview.. Couldnt sleep the night before.. What perfect timing? Resulting in stoning answers.. Worst of all, when I thought back.. I actually know the answer.. Back to farming I guess..
November 4 Happy 21st Birthday Ms Ho Mei Vern! Present hutang dulu ya? Meanwhile, you can look at this and be happy for awhile.. Or angry.. Lol.. There, your motivation to get 4 H1.. Enjoy your day! While I continue farming.. One sacred relic coming up!
Getting really worried now.. Everyone's working this summer.. What if I cant get the job? This is depressing.. Sigh..
November 5 Waking up in the morning knowing that you'll go through the same routine life sucks.. How can one sustain his/her interest in studying throughout the whole exam period.. Frustrating.. I need to buckle up and gain momentum.. It's tough.. Level 12 and no relic.. On top of that, teammates are giving me a hell of a time.. "People are mean, and life's a bitch.."
Back to farming.. And hell yea I'm denying today.. Dont even think bout getting a single creep today! The bomb has been triggered.. Game on!
November 6 "Why so serious?" I've had enough.. When nothing is going the right way, I guess it's my cue to pray.. A long chat with my Father.. "When darkness seems to veil His face, I rest on His unchanging grace. In every high and stormy gale, my anchor holds within the veil. His oath His covenant and blood,support me in the ‘whelming flood. When all around my soul gives way,He then is all my hope and stay. When the last trumpets voice shall sound,O then I may in Him be found, Clothed in His righteousness alone,faultless to stand before His throne.."
The farming continues.. I guess summer is not the only season.. Sometimes we stress and insist on something or someone so much that we miss out on other great stuff that could be better.. "Let's put a smile on that face.."
November 7 Woke up from nightmare to a beautiful sunny day.. Just when I thought things would get better today.. Boston Celtics w5 streak was ended by Phoenix Suns.. AT BOSTON! Damn it!! All thanks so missing 3s by Pierce and Wallace.. Cant believe they gave away 33 points to Mr Scoreless-in-his-last-game..
That aside, audit is killing me.. Literally.. Feels like my head is being banged at the wall.. Constant headaches looking at words that dont mean anything to me.. And that my friend, is my cue for not being an auditor when I graduate.. Hell no! Progress is damn slow.. It feels like an idiot to be walking around with the relic with no money to buy the freaking scroll! AT NIGHT!! With Balanar in the opposing team! Feels like my day is wasted.. Wait, scratch that.. My life is wasted!! Why on earth do people study?! Cant we just get a microchip filled with knowledge injected in our brains? DAMN! The more I look at the text, it feels like I'm using Mangekyo.. Feels like my eyes are gonna bleed and I'm gonna get blind soon..
Dramatic? I know.. Sigh! Definitely counting down.. Just one more week.. November 8 Every good day begins with great music.. And today my choice would be.. The Time Has Come - Hillsong United.. "..today's the day, it's all or nothing.." Sorry Father, promise I'll be in church after exam.. Farming resumes..
Sometimes it's about how much you wanna make the other person happy.. Would you make me happy if you had the chance to?
November 9 Baby, I wanna turn you on.. And play with you till you're knocked out.. Touch you all over.. Slide you up and down.. Use you whenever I want, wherever I want.. I wanna take you home and put you on my bed.. Hold you to sleep.. Cuz having you waking up next to me makes me happy.. Oh Aino baby.. Only you would wanna make me happy without me asking for it.. Promise I'll take you home soon! Seems like this uncertainty I'm feeling is growing stronger by the minutes each day.. Where no amount of substantive testing would do any good.. So many combination of possibilities.. I hate..
Farming resumes.. 2 more days to Audit.. Will I conquer or will I fall?
November 10 Time to wrap up for war tomorrow..
You're the reason why I look forward towards the end of exam so much.. Do you know that?
November 11 KILLING SPREE!! Your hero has pawned Auditing and Assurance's head.. Not too shabby.. Nothing stands in the way of my mangekyo.. Totally amaterasued the paper and susanoo my way out of exam hall.. Now I can only pray for the best.. And that's 3 down with just 1 more to go..
Farming continues..
Been studying quite hard, sometimes I wonder why I'm trying so hard.. What am I trying to prove? That I'm capable of good results as well? Frankly, I dont know if I could.. Johnly, maybe I'll just make a fool of myself.. And peterly, this might be my limit.. Sigh.. Why didnt I start early? I'd blame the inconducive study environment! Sometimes you know you deserve better.. But better is just never meant for you..
November 12 You've got to be kidding me!! What the hell is so good about 14 February 2010?! Why is everything cramped on that one day! First day of CNY, Valentine's and now NBA All-Star@Dallas?!
Ok that was random.. Let's continue farming.. Game ends in 5 more days..
Sigh.. Stoned all day.. I'll live to fight another day.. At the end of this all, what's it gonna be?
November 13 "..just a day, just an ordinary day.. just trying to get by.. just a boy, just an ordinary boy but he was looking to the sky.." 4 days left and I'm on a mission to do some magic.. Last one, cannot afford to loosen up on the D.. Farming resumes..
Even the most brilliant plan fails with the slightest miscalculation.. I'm not a schemer.. I'm an agent of chaos.. That's what I should be.. The joke's on me, seriously.. By the way, do you wanna know how I got these scars?
November 14 Happy birthday you.. Yes you, the girl I love..
November 15 Farming resumes.. Running short of time.. Who said open book exams are easier? So much pressure to prepare beforehand..
Been staring at the PC whole day already.. This is more tiring than using mangekyo and my eyes are seriously bleeding.. Okay maybe not.. These stuff I'm preparing better be useful otherwise I'm gonna amaterasu someone! November 16
He who finds himself a worthy opponent.. Have I become weaker, or have I become too good for you? How long did you think this undue influence of yours would have a hold on him? The sun will rise again tomorrow, yea but what if destiny had predetermined that you wont live to see another day.. Why are you withholding? Have you considered the elasticity of your grip? What if he doesnt want to hear you anymore, what you say dont matter anymore? What if this feeling soak right down in his bones at this very second? And there's nothing that you could do to amend that change anymore?
If there's too much pressure, will you lose the ball? What if the point guard with fine steal averages was just behind you, and you didnt know all along? What's your score average? Can you be sure that whenever the ball leaves your hand, it's gonna go through the hoop? What if Dwight Howard was marking you? At the end of it all, will this be just another dream? A dream that will never be realised.. And then just written off like any other obsolete assets..
I may have bought the ticket, but I can always choose not to board the plane.. It's the price that I can live with, to know what you're made of..
It's been a really long while since I've played basketball.. And today, my plays seems perfectly fine.. Not at top form but I still have it, I reckon.. To make things better, it rained.. And for awhile it feels great to shoot some hoops in the rain.. Which is all that I wanna do right now.. Memories of good games and good companies then.. My worthy opponent, you'll always be..
Friday, I'll draw first blood.. Why is this tired-of-all-these-shits-feeling keeps lingering around me? Hating the weather, the fact that my AC is spoilt and I have to sleep in the guest room, the toothache and most of all, missing all the good food session.. Gaman gaman, approximately 9 months left.. So will it be first blood or that your hero has fallen?
Melted.. Being musically inclined is definitely a plus point.. It's been a very long while since I felt like this.. Like my heart melted just a little.. Warm and it feels like home.. Just the thought about someone you like singing to you..
Enjoy..
For a moment I've forgotten that exam is in 9 days.. Oh shit! Gotta get back to work now! Ja..
At sixes and sevens.. There comes a time when every life goes off course.. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fear bravely? And move forward with faith.. Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?
Exhausted.. Life sucks and it's tiring to be living in my current situation.. Ever get caught up in a situation that you yourself know is wrong and yet you just keep indulging in it.. The worst thing is that you cant do anything about it.. Oh wait, you can.. You can either continue to hurt just yourself or make everyone else suffer with you.. And to top that shit, exam is in 3 bloody weeks and this stupid mood is messing with my mind so badly that I cant concentrate at all.. Fuck this shit! Practically asking for trouble from the very start.. Thing will get very ugly from now the way I see it.. I really really really dont wanna do this anymore.. Can someone just kill me now?
I'm in so much pain.. All I wanna now is to get a knife.. Take out my heart.. Store it in a box, bury it deep below the sea.. And hide away the key.. Taking away this pain and misery.. Heartless.. Pirates style.. Perfect defense.. Why do I always get into complicated relationships? Cant I just get a simple one for a change? God if you're reading this, please help me out here.. Fix it.. Please, I beg of You..
Knowing 1v4n for dummies.. The second half.. Fifty one.. I hate papayas and wines! Full stop!
Fifty two.. I'm a quick and objective shopper.. But, I will look at every possible shop that sells the thing that I want in the mall before I decide.. For instance, a pair of jeans.. I'll look thru every shop that sells jeans in the mall before I decide which pair I should buy.. And I do it quite swiftly.. I hardly spend more than 15 minutes in one shop.. Unless I feel overly rich that I should spend..
Fifty three..
I'm weird..
Really weird..
So weird I cant even explain it..
Fifty four..
I'm a really boring person..
I actually enjoy being at home, stoning more than being out..
I stare into blanks alot..
And I totally love lying down, and just look out my window at the sky for no apparent reason..
"All day, staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall.."
Fifty five..
It might not seem so, but there's a million things that runs thru my mind.. I think alot, most of it unnecessary.. So much that I get upset by my own imaginary thoughts at times.. It's not like I can turn my mind off.. Somethings just cant be controlled..
Fifty six.. I hate inefficiency, I cant stress enough.. I expect instant reply when I ask a serious question.. I expect work to be done within a short period of time.. I dont take into account time for delays.. Yet I am inefficient.. LOL?
Fifty seven.. I'm currently addicted to green tea ice cream, mahjong, texas holdem, and a lil panda!
Fifty eight.. I've read thru SlamDunk for God knows how many times and yet I still find myself taking those comics out and reading it from time to time.. My source of inspiration to play basketball..
Fifty nine.. I make proper considerations before wanting something.. I do my research.. I dont buy stuff that I dont know about.. Especially when it comes to things like phones and computer stuffs.. But that doesnt mean I dont buy things I dont need!
Sixty.. I have cravings for certain food from time to time and it's happening more often recently.. And it sucks to be eating what you're not craving for.. I'm not pregnant sue fat!
Sixty one.. Surely everything happens for a reason, but what the hell is the reason? I hate it when things get uncertain.. I hate it when I dont know what is gonna happen next..
Sixty two.. I dont like to be in the way.. I hate myself for dragging my team down (whenever I hav one).. I wont take my own sweet time and drive at a speed slower than the car that's tailing me not allowing him to speed off.. Note: not everything with four wheels on the road is a car to me, so if I ever blocked your way, that's cuz you're driving a piece of scrap metal..
Sixty three.. More than half of my closet is black.. Dont complain, what you see is what you get..
Sixty four.. Music adds meaning to my life... Songs are my way of sending an indirect messages.. Every song that I listen to at specific time, carries a specific message for a specific person..
Sixty five.. My concentration level is probably next to zero when it comes to studying.. Almost anything is capable of distracting me from studying.. This is bad.. So leave me alone when I am studying.. So dont be a bitch come telling me bout food, movies, manga or whatever that is interesting.. Although I enjoy it.. D.O.N.T.
Sixty six.. I'll let you hit me once if it's my fault.. But subsequent hits will be repaid with triple interest compounded by the second.. You've been warned..
Sixty seven.. I dont know how to act like I'm fine when I'm not.. It shows.. And I'm quite easily affected by other people's emotions.. Not good..
Sixty eight.. It's a bad idea to cry in front of me.. I wont know how to make you feel better.. And I panic when girls cry.. It's very scary..
Sixty nine.. Girls who are ignorant bout cars is a major turn off.. Its rude to be treating a car the way it should not be treated.. Love your car, it's not merely a transportation tool..
Seventy.. I love to speed.. Not everyone can relate and appreciate the thrill, the excitement from the speed.. I know it's bad but I enjoy it.. Which is why I'm gonna get a turbo engine hottie.. A ten second car.. "I live my life a quarter mile at a time. Nothing else matters. For those ten seconds or less, I'm free.."
Seventy one.. I hate it when life gets complicated.. I get frustrated when I cant find a solution.. It bothers me yet I wouldnt be very bothered to fix it.. I'd probably hang around in the realm of complainings..
Seventy two.. I really dont like to ask people for favors.. It's really not my style.. It's very hard for me to raise the question.. Dont make me ask twice..
Seventy three.. I will never go clubbing.. Fullstop..
Seventy four.. BBQ plaza is usually my first choice when I'm going dinner with iv.. I only enjoy going there with my bitchy sister and no one else.. It's just weird to go with friends..
Seventy five.. I enjoy horror rides and nightmares.. Seriously, it reminds me that I dont wanna die yet.. There's so much more that I've not done.. Gotta go bungee jump and skydiving one day..
Seventy six.. I just realised that I've been wasting my life for the past 2 years.. Haven been doing what I should be doing as a student.. It's time I get serious and make up for the time I've lost..
Seventy seven.. I hardly compliment.. Know that I really mean it when I say something nice..
Seventy eight.. I have a really good drumset in my head.. It's made by I.M.A.G.I.N.A.T.I.O.N. Playing it is inevitable..
Seventy nine.. Dictionary.com is my best friend during assignment periods.. I enjoy using words that I'm not familiar with in my assignments.. Weird..
Eighty.. I cannot stand people who only tell me half a story.. I must hear the whole thing.. And it totally bugs me when someone ask me an lame joke question without giving me the answer in the end.. I wont be able to sleep.. Seriously.. Dont try me.. My patience has its limits..
Eighty one.. Unbelievably unrealistic martial arts and futuristic movies fascinates me.. I like to believe that it is capable of happening eventho I know it's impossible..
Eighty two.. I dont giv a shit even if I hav to pay a bigger sum.. Just fine me.. I will never bribe.. I aint paying a single cent to you bastards.. It's degrading the country with these parasites living.. And it pisses me off..
Eighty three.. I cant work when I'm hungry.. Seriously.. It's too distracting.. So feed me.. Hungry people are angry people.. And angry people dont take instructions well..
Eighty four.. I'm no good in handling unexpected situations.. Most of the time, I'll regret what I've decided and think about it later on when the decision is too late to be amended..
Eighty five.. I strongly believe that a good leader must first be a better follower.. You cant lead if you dont know how to follow.. Dont freak out if I'm following you.. It's cuz I think that you're a good leader.. LOL?
Eighty six.. I'd prefer if you tell me in my face when you have a problem with me.. We'll sit down and have a good long chat bout it.. However, if your problem is proven to be unreasonable.. Somebody's gonna get hurt real bad..
Eighty seven.. I'm quite full of shit.. I dont always do all the things that I said I'll do.. But it's the thought that counts right?
Eighty eight.. I'm slowly becoming a bimbo! Dont believe me? Ask iv.. Very bad..
Eighty nine.. I'm quite a good actor I would say.. I may look like I'm buying your shits but really, I'm not.. You cant see it, but I'm probably stabbing you at the back of my head..
Ninety.. Dont make me do things I dont wanna do.. I'll hate you.. A no simply means no.. It doesnt mean maybe I'll do it if you persuade me.. I'm a guy..
Ninety one.. Dont question my judgment when I said I'm sure more than once.. It's annoying.. Just correct me later if I'm wrong.. But dont keep interrupting..
Ninety two.. If you appreciate me, I'll appreciate you.. Respect me and I'll respect you.. Give and take.. Dont just take.. Play nice.. I'm not a fool..
Ninety three.. Say it nicely if you want me to listen.. Even when I did something wrong.. Dont be come talking to me like I owe you something.. I dont handle people's anger towards me very well..
Ninety four.. I like wongfuproductions.. They're cool..
Ninety five.. I dont do things with intention to hurt anyone.. If I've hurt you somehow.. Tell me.. It's not intentional..
Ninety six.. I cant push myself to give a hundred percent.. You wanna try? Fill up the application form..
Ninety seven.. If I could change anything bout myself, I'd take away this laziness.. I hate myself for being lazy.. I hate it when I manage to convince myself to take another 5 minutes off.. Speakin of which.. Recent research has found that the average sleep that a person need is 5 more minutes.. Chew on that..
Ninety eight.. I'm a complicated creature.. I find it hard to even understand myself.. And it's driving me crazy..
Ninety nine.. 14 loves you 11.. But I guess feelings alone is not enough..
Hundred.. I'm writing this for me.. To remind myself what kinda guy I am.. At this point..
Say and it will be done..
There, your motivation to get 4 H1..
Promise I'll take you home soon!